"the easy way, the hard way, or the zombie way..." Daddy gave me my three paths to submission today. After our fight Tuesday he has been thinking about how to progress with me. He is not going to do anything in public with me until he is certain of my obedience.
He didn't want to take this route, but I have given him no choice. Disobedience will be met with isolation and severe beatings. If I am not going to submit out of love, he says fear is a workable solution. He is also looking into hypnosis and brainwashing. I am genuinely scared. "If you won't work with me as my partner, than I will teach you as my opponent, you will lose." I believe him.
He cares enough to do this. If he didn't care, I would be gonzo. I know I am frustrating as shit, willful, and the most trouble he has ever had. I enjoy being knocked around a bit, but I am by no means a pain slut. I better get my head out of my ass real quick like. I am scared to death. Which for me, is the only way out of this.
Bloody hell girl - hope you've got your suit of armour knickers on!
ReplyDeleteSounds like this have been hellishly rough for you recently both emotionally and physically. Hope you are looking after both elements of you 'cos if you don't you won't be any good for him.
All okay here. Still a bit grrrrrrrr about everything that's happened and need, need, need to be thrown to the floor and kicked about and owned again but hopefully that's coming.
Bit jealous of your planned orgy/threesome :-)
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no shit huh? I wanna hear deets! Hope to catch up with you on YH. I am also pretty amped about Saturday. Kat is really fun and has NO idea what is in store for her!
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