Resistance is futile

I am still recovering from pneumonia and Daddy came over last night. I had made some food and attempted to bake bread unsuccessfully. My mojo is a bit off I think still. Daddy loves my cooking and I love to feed him. We had a nice dinner.

Sick or not I am a fucktoy and was desperate for use. Thankfully Daddy used this slut...we tried to be mellow but just don't think that is possible for us. I love looking into his eyes as he is shoving his cock in me, it is feral and angry. Our energies just feed off each other and it is hard to stay controlled. He hits me I want to beg for him to hit me harder, he pulls my hair it is the same. I love feeding the sadistic side he is beginning to show with me. I've never been a pain slut so this desire is new to me. I cum as he covers my nose and mouth. I cum when he twists my nipples. He reduces me to my core purpose, holes to be used. I where I belong. Afterward, we cuddled and talked. His first priority is getting me healthy and second....getting me to obey.

He sees that at the stepping stone to anything else we will do. For me, obedience has always been a rote, "yes Sir, no Sir..." type of thing. Daddy explained why my obedience will be key to anything we do moving forward. I think this is the first time I have actually understood this concept thoroughly.

Last night he explained that he is going to put me in some scary situations and unfamiliar territory. He needs to know that he can trust in my blind obedience in order to take me to these places. I need to obey for my own internal well-being as well. We cannot move forward until I am in that place where there is no fear or hesitation in my compliance. He says, I do period.

I have had some minor rebellions such as not doing homework. He is paying attention to even these small transgressions. My seemingly innocent omissions or mistakes are a lack of obedience. I get it now and I understand why it is important.

I still have a pass on a lot of my duties now due to my sickness. I am determined that once I am healthy I will work to be the obedient whore he needs me to be for both of us. Wherever he will take me I will go.