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Projects projects. The quest for my girlfriend continues. I am not having much luck honestly. I think I have actually found some good places to look and baited quite a few hooks this morning. Daddy helped. Now I wait and see who nibbles. I also need to work on finding a more reliable fuck buddy. I HATE not getting laid regularly. I am a sex slave, duh. That is what I do.

Daddy is coming over tomorrow and we are going to plan my pictures he is going to take of me Saturday for the escort thing. I need to do more research online and see what we should be aiming for. My photographer friend disappeared for a while but he has come back and also wants to start planning for our photo shoot. We have decided on a Betty Page inspired pin-up theme. My gays are going to come with me, it will be fun. Additionally, GirlCrush has expressed a desire to photograph me. Why not?

Doc and I spoke today and he may be able to make it down the weekend of the 20th. I contacted Kat to see if she is game. He has agreed to teach me rope bondage yay! He is quite the phenom with the ropes and is very cautious and careful. This is important to me because I think I may have some permanent nerve damage from bad bondage by The Sadist last summer. You can really screw someone up if you aren't careful. If I am going to have a pet, I do want some skillz to bring to the table. Additionally, I am really excited to break in my feeldoe!

Other normal stuff like work, laundry, yoga. Sigh. There are not enough hours in the day to do everything I want to do. The good news is that I have not had one fit this last week, being busy suits me. I also had an epiphany last night. I have always shared everything in my life. I am generous most likely to a fault with my time, money, love... I do derive such pleasure in bringing people together and making connections. I want to share everything good in my life with everyone I love. Polyamory is doing just that. As long as Daddy does what he said he will I think I will be fine with this. I am not a patient person at all and understand that this will take some time. The fear I am being strung along and duped is there. I do think it is irrational. He loves me. He wants these things too. I have to hold onto that.